ReikiNoJutsu

Everything’s a blur, I can not do this any more, I’m still alive but how so bad I want to die These thoughts eating me alive, My demons laughing, This battle, this fight I’m losing badly... How I wish to forget It’s sad to know i won’t be missed It hurts to know that I just barely exist Strange how cuts across the legs didn’t bring peace But a single line a cross my wrist took the thoughts and pain away I looked up and my demons had gone finally left this place They will never understand what someone must feel To hurt their own bodies as a way to heal.....

It was a late winter night, the moon was filled with a bright ghostly glow.  She sat in the dark staring out to the world around her. The haunting shadow curled up next to her resting his head against her back.  “All the fun we will have to night. If only you would sleep... my fucked up little monster...” he chuckles a beastly laugh that made her skin feel like slime.  Daring not to look back at the shadow who’s eyes locked on to the heart of her soul.   “You’d like that wouldn’t you. For me to sleep and have your way.” Her voice gravely as she forced her words harshly out.  

Tired of living Sick of fighting Inside i've already died There is no longer a point in trying Always second best, my live is just a mess I'm nothing of importance just a replacement of something they lost I'll never be the one they really love I'm fine with hate, i dont belong in this place I belong no where and i dont wanna be just an extrat peice I'll never be important I'll never be loved Thats okay cause no one will misss me when i die today My legs and wrists are scared, and my chest has no heart I shall not cry, dont ask why and let this be a final good bye "come one girl pick up that knife and end your life, wrap the rope so tight kic

It was a stormy night, She just finished her master piece drawing. Her last manga was complete and her last cosplay was worn. Lilly grabbed a knife and began to carve. She placed the knife down to answer the phone. "Hi" he whispered "*giggles softly* hi to you too's Matt" "How are you, Lilly?" "I'm Well, and Yourself" "I'm good" "Knock kock" "Who's there?" "Boo!" "Boo Who?" "Don't cry when your told that I've died tonight." "Lilly ? ............  Lilly?............... Are you there? Hello? Helluuuuuu??" -Beep- Lilly laid down her hands dropped the phone and laid on the bed she began grow faint as the soaked thick with her blood.

What's another broken promise... after all its not like it mean's anything... Everything I've ever been told is just a lie... And every promise given has been broken.. A promise is suppose to be your word your grantee... But its all just faceless lies... Tell me lie's... Tell me lie's... What's more broken promise's... What does any of it matter any more... This time it will be good bye... As soon  as I finish sharpening my knife's. I'll finishes the canvas, You can find me hanging out side

I Hate Hello's... cause I don't want to say good bye.... all I ever say is hello... good bye... I ask you to stay...but.... good bye always fall's in to play.... ...................I hate Hello's.........

....Don't ask me too let you inside my wall of ice...              .....your only going to want back out after you've burned me inside... Don't... Just Don't... You don't belong in here and I don't belong out there...        ....I've felt all the pain... I've heard every Lie... I'm tired of being hurt by your kind... So don't ask for me to let you inside...        ...The wall is here to keep you out...                ..I'll continue to wipe my own tears...

Im still fighting... i haven't chosen yet.. but im still fighting.. We are always fighting ourselves... I was strong for to long, i've decided to be weak.. let them beat me as i lay here... I'll start fighting again.. i just need a break from it.. As I Stand here, in the lonley with myself ..... To others this is.. Depression.... to me... this is war and i'm losing the battle... To you, its something thats wrong, its something your putting up with to me.... For me its something i have to live with... I'm always the one who is there for others... but its so dark here... cause no one is here for me... i here the whisper again. "No one is c

My tears fall so slowly My hands shake as I paint a make a few more strokes to my wall My body tiggles with icey numbness and The music is blaring I scream the words inside my head The brush drops from my hand and a knife takes its place "Don't stop cutting..." The voices say The words May Not Be True But That Doesn't Mean I Don't Feel Them My Chest throbs I Crier harder and collapse to the ground My throat is no longer making a sound and I scream with out emotion "I Deserve This, I Deserve This! Its All My Fault, I Deserve This?" I punch the wall, my knuckles stain with the wet paint and I find myself In a ball crying away How did I let